8/31/2006
i have AN AQUATHLON TOMORROW?! *faints* argh. it's crazeeyyyyy! i just barely recovered and i have a freaking important competition?! ohkay. hold up. i haven't FULLY recovered, remember? still have a sore throat. and still feel really tired. damn damn damn. and $70 plus was paid for membership and everything! wtf?! if i don't do well.. ahhaaaaa!!

great. my sister is singing again. -_-" i shall counter it with the WAITT dance! we're all in this together, idiot. (it so reigns) ah wellzy. wahahs. i'm dancing like never before! i'm on my feet typing these few sentences!

i'm being fed juices and shakes one after another for tomorrow's competition. there's this protein shake which tastes quite alright. ah. i'll go through all the stuff.. hmm let's see.
-champion chip..
-security wrist tag
-competition numbers (mine's 361)
-body marking pen
-swim cap
-batteries
-a h20 packet
-a sportmag
-emergency kit- healing gel for irritated skin
-deep heating rub for muscles aches

and i have a GIGANTIC -_______________-" for some of them... i should stop blogging about this aquathlon. seriously. it's getting me nervous!! BREATHEEEEEEEE!!!!! ooh ooh! ?HSM! i should go watch it to chill or something..

YESSSSSSS!!!! holidays!!!!!! ahahahahahahaha!!! *mad laughter continues for another 20 seconds* hah ohkay. that's enough. ahh. holidays. so much to do. i just dont understand the concept. it's called HOLIDAYS right? then why are we expected to study, do homework and stuff? heeee-llloooooo? i checked it up in wikipedia (dont ask why there.) and this is what it says about holidays.

The word holiday has related but different meanings in English-speaking countries. Based on the words holy and day, holidays originally represented special religious days. The word has evolved in general usage to mean any special day of rest (as opposed to regular days of rest such as the weekend).

erm. ya see that? yet teachers still give PILES of homework. not like i'll do anyway. you're just kind of like.. what? holiday? more like 'i still gotta do work only difference? i dont have to go to jail. (School, in this case.) and i can stay at home.' ugh. then say so! dont call it holiday. keep giving us work and all.. complete buffoons. dont know the meaning of holiday. they're totally lying to small lil kids running around in their nappies. hah crap. thats what it is.

oh man. i have a REALLY overdue book. since before the june holidays. -_-" erms? ah welzy. reason why i'm blogging so early? hmm let's see. my mom woke me up 4 times today. keep reminding me to sell the newspapers cuz they're piling up. (yea it's true. i had to make 7 trips back and forth to get all of them to the front porch. from the yard..) and i'm not that weak. i've been training for the aquathlon, remember? OH SHIT. the aquathlon is TOMORROW! panic, kim. PANICCCCCCCCCCCCCC!!!!! wtf am i doin? i should be preparing! (and finding thatoverdue book too. -_-") why am i talking to myself? uhh.. whatever. i should chill first. ahh. chilling with destruction. heeeeeeeeeeeeehhhh..........

i wonder why guys are all the same. you dont reply them for 30 min and they think you're mean, you dont like them etc. they start smsing ya repeatedly for like 17 seconds. everytime you put your phone down, you get an sms. one thing i do when soemone cant be patient with me, i dont reply. and get bugged by tons of people. sigh. but hello? i was sleeping. you sms me at 8.06 am you expect me to be awake? holidays! SLEEP IN. (unless your mom bugs ya 4 times or more to sell newspapers, thats an exception. obviously she knows my sis will just roll over and continue sleeping, the pig..zzz. lmao) so yea. i dont really bring my phone all around wit me. sometimes i leave it somewhere i dont know. and i cant remember. and. sometimes. even if i know i have a message, i wont read it till later. weird me. haha. i know. so. erm. sheesh. i was sleeping, kuku head! haiix..

i should seriously start finding that book of mine.. well. not mine, the library's. or they'll start harassing xue ying again. (i borrowed using her card. forced to, actually. by LSC. ass.) ah wellzy. toodles!

My Goodies, My Goodies, My Goodies
Not my goodies!

I got a sick reputation for handlin broads
All I need is me a few seconds or more.
And in my rap
Tell valet to bring my 'Lac
And I ain't comin back
So you can put a car right there.
I'm the truth
And ain't got nothin' to prove.
An you can ask anybody
Cuz they seen me do it.
Barracades, I run right through 'em
I'm used to 'em.
Throw all the dirt you want it's no use.
You still won't have a pinup in a fabulous room
On her back pickin' out baskets of fruit.
(I love you boo)
Yeah freak and Petey love you too.
Ha Ha You know how I do..

You may look at me and think that I'm
Just a young girl
But I'm not just a young girl.
Baby this is what I'm lookin' for:
Sexy, independent, down to spend it type that's gettin' his dough
I'm not bein too dramatic that's the way I gotta have it

I bet you want the goodies.
Bet you thought about it.
Got you all hot and bothered.
Mayb' cuz I talk about it.
Lookin for the goodies
Keep on lookin' cuz they stay in the jar
Oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh

Just because you drive a Benz
I'm not goin home with you.
You won't get no nookie or the cookies
I'm no rookie.
And still I'm
Sexy, independent
I ain't wit' it so you already know.
I'm not bein too dramatic that's the way I gotta have it
You think you're slick
Tryna hit
But I'm not dumb
I'm not bein too dramatic it's just how I gotta have it

So damn hot but so young.
Still got milk on ya tongue
Slow down lil one
And you ain't got it all
Hey shawty
You think you bad but you ain't bad
I'll show you what bad is.
Bad is when you capable of beatin' the baddest.
I been workin' at it since I came to this planet
And I ain't quite there yet but I'm gettin' better at it.
Matter of fact,
Lemme tell it to you one mo' again
All I got to do is tell a girl who I am
Ain't naa chick in here dat I can't have
Bada boom bada bam ba bam!

You're insinuating that I'm hot
But these goodies boy are not
Just for any of the many men that's tryna get on top.
No you can't call me later
And I don't want your number.
I'm not changin' stories
Just respect the play I'm callin'.

I bet you want the goodies.
Bet you thought about it.
Got you all hot and bothered.
Mayb' cuz I talk about it.
Lookin for the goodies
Keep on lookin' cuz they stay in the jar
Oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh

I bet you want the goodies.
Bet you thought about it.
Got you all hot and bothered.
Mayb' cuz I talk about it.
Lookin for the goodies
Keep on lookin' cuz they stay in the jar
Oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh

Uh...Yeah...Uh...Yeah Uh Uh Uh


haha i feel a LITTLE like that now. ah wells. nice song, no? hols. they're here! woohoo!! wee!! let's all go to the beach! shopping! ice-skating! whatever we can do!!

OH GAWD. silly computer keep on disconnecting. well, not my computer. the internet thing. URGH! driving me crazier! oh and msn keeps loging me off. wtf is the eff-ing problem today?! i so needa scream!

ohkay people. this is the list i promised. about ashwiin.

52 things we all know we hate about ashwiin(from 1 joy,2006) but never dare to acknowledge. oh c'mon. we ALL know you agree. compiled by.. mainly. all those who hate him. (= there ya go, ashwiin. enjoy! this one's for you! let's start! ^_^

1. he's f-ing disgustingly FAT.
2. HORNY.
3. thinks of all the MOST SICK STUFF EVER.
4. purely a nuisance.
5. FUGLY!
6. IRRITATING
7. RUMOR-SPREADER
8. STINGY
9. STUCK-UP
10. an ass
11. fish lipped
12. sissy
13. nerdy
14. a suck-up
15. complete hypocrite
16. backstabber
17. liar. (fine. i know i lie too. guilty as charged. FINE. get on to ashwiin lah.)
18. fat leg
19. small shoe.
( improportionate body parts.)
20. gross
21. IMMATURE
22. PERVERT!!
23. acts
24. always assumes people are going steady and doin THAT
25. totally pisses people off
26. makes people puke. (more than one, yeah)
27. oily
28. pollutes air
29. pollutes water
30. pollutes land
31. tries to be teacher's pet.
32. proud
33. desperate
34. utterly repulsive
35. uncool
36. loser
37. ignorant to crap
38. tell tale.
39. wets his bed.
40. sucks his thumb
( witnesses have testified)
41. mean
42. bullies kenny
43. act cool
44. encourages pervert behavior
45. pollutes the mind of young cute lil boys. (=
46. thick skinned
47. ungentlemanly
48. self-centred
49. unkind
50. chauvanistic.
51. not willing to do his fair share of work esp for proj work!!
52. boring to talk to

cool. i thought of 67 while compiling the list. (; those are just the first 50 of it. so ya see? is that enough reason to hate him? you can't deny it any longer! ugh fine. i'll make a list of 5 things we actually like about him. hmm ohkay. here goes.

1. ummm. nothing. sorry. mind blank here.
2. none
3. nil
4. uhh?
5. bleah. clueless.

sorry. none. well. i've given him too much spotlight already. this is MY blog, remember? who gets the limelight? ME. so. teacher's day performance was alright. quite nice. went to see mdm tan again. XD argh. i spent so much time blogging about ashwiin that my fingers ache already. maybe i'll blog a tiny weenie bit more.

cher and i practically walked around everywhere. hahs people keep asking why we seem to be everywhere. =D i saw rachel!! woohoo! she went to pres high! ooh ooh. and so did ju heyng! saw em both! went to j8. had lunch.. went mei xu and hin wen. walked back to school. blah blah blah. this is so in REALLY rough detail. well, not detail at all. forget it.

how i adore you so

8/29/2006

ah wells. i got what i wanted. but i feel lousy. du-uh. i'm sick. i skipped sku. but this fever is so annoying. no energy to do anything! urgh! and my throat! it burns! haiix. i'm sorry xy. i pressured ya to go for the VC but didnt turn up myself. sorry, teamates. let ya'll down. not sure how you guys are gonna survive one girl short. but if we get back our report books only tomorrow, i'll scream the house down. no joke. although my throat will hurt more...

ooh crap. just typing this alone has made me feeling freakin exhausted.. ugh! i wish i had a wheelchair or something to take me around.. so i dont have to walk. or maybe someone to get everything i want, so i don't have to move at all. maybe a guest blogger, so i dont have to exhaust myself even more. (= that would be nice. too bad everyone's too guai kia and at school now. they so need to get a life. they dont skip class, or anything! all those hypocrites, pretending to be someone they're not. rule-abiders. one day i'll be in a different class, away from those f-ed up freaks who call themselves my frens. ohkay ohkay. not all. some nice ones. =D

oh gosh i'm really tired.

i'm out for now. howdy's out. -

i hate today. i'll hate tomorrow. i hate yesterday. well. not really. FOC. full of crap. wahahs. i'm tryna skip getting report books till end of hols. it ain't long. so. why not? XD urgh. doubt i can skip sku.. i've only got a sore throat. i can act. but my doctor may suspect and refuse to gimme an mc.. well, duh. i just saw him and got an mc like 2 weeks ago. don't suggest going to another doc. my mom calls my doctor up. -_-" so if he says he didnt see me, i'm dead. maybe i should just like go sick bay or something. whatever. not much to blog. i'm just wasting my freaking time..

8/28/2006

this will be a documentary cum post. well, duh. the post's about my biking trip. like. double duh. well, ohkay.

day 1:
woke up at some freakin time. not sure. but for a saturday, i sure felt it was early. i complained. yack-ed. whined at my mother. quarrelled with my sister, thankfully. i win again. checked for everything. got to changi. silly water bottle filled with coke leaked. messy like crazy. walked to the toilet, washed up. went to meet the ones in charge or whoever. saw pros. felt like a lil loser. a LITTLE. few times this happens. blah blah. the boat ride sucked. i got seasick. bleahs. almost puked on my sis. i wish i did tho.. would've felt better. so, well, for an hour, i sat in the silly seat, next to this ass of a city folk. scared of a lil sun. seriously. it was SO LITTLE. its sun only! get so afraid for what? blah again. reached malaysia. cant remember which part. so. wells. we started cycling. the pros went somewhere else. more terrain the part. we cycled along the road. i was glad for sun-tan lotion. and for dri-fit. wicks sweat like crazy. (: cycled for 18km. saw a really cute family of wild boar. cycle somemore.. reached this really nice place. sebana cove. pity we only stopped there for lunch. if we stayed there, i'd be freaking happy. lunch was satisfying. fish and chips. apple pie. this really different ice kachang. oh. i'm hungry again. cycled along this track. my sis fell. i was ROFLing so much! blah blah blah after more cycling. my mom fell.. she got her whole foot and shoe wet. (: laughed like siao. well, whatever, i don't like her y'know?

eventually we reached this hotel. it's basic but really clean. there are even singapore channels on tv there! the beds were comfy. =D the toilets weren't icky. for dinner, we went to this nice place for seafood. oishi!! we had an early night.

day 2:
wen we woke up, we had this really bad ache. in our neck, back and shoulder. ooh and butt pain too. for breakfast, i had 3 plates of this really good chee cheong fan. my sis enjoyed it too. ^_^ we visited this ostrich farm. interesting. pity some of them. born 'disfigured'. sorta. began the journey home.. i was stupid enough to wear a black shirt. LMAO. giddy, headache. nauseous. the heat got to me. sigh sigh. the boat ride home only made it worse.. i was totally flush...

had dinner at changi. ipoh hor fun was quite nice. when we got home, we were totally shack. think i went to bed at 10.30pm.. early? yup. ahh well. too bad.

i woke up today feeling really tired. ashley says i looked haggard. -_-" sad. well, in the morning only. thankfully sku wasn't that long or i'd have collapsed. when we were all doing newscast, i felt so freakin faint i think i'd have blacked out if not for the fact that mrs loh suddenly minused our marks. and i wasn't talking at all. (wow. for the first time.. ) d&t was fun. (= so much filing of metal. but. well, it was fun.

didnt do much after school. too tired to be hyper today. sorry. i ain't myself. argh. really sad. tan lines. really really bad tan lines. even benjamin could see them.. the ones on my hands, that is.. ahh wells. vertical challenge on wednesday. climb 23 storeys. -_-" urgh. xue ying, if you back out, i'll kill ya! ooh and uhh.. ragu, benjamin and nathaniel chua are in our team. jiayou worrs! chiong! rock it, yo! crap we're gonna get back our report books soon. i didnt do well. ): i'm gonna skip that session. of getting it back, i mean. desperate times call for desperate measures. ohkay ohkay. it's not desperate. whatever.

8/25/2006

hola. the stimuli performance today was totally tacky. totally. well, for my group, that is. especially me. darn i talk too fast.. WTH DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME? normally like.. my frens kinda understand what i'm talking about.. normally. ughed. two normallys. diao-ers? it seems like the group i was in was the worst.. surprisingly, rachel's was like, the *erms* last? ehehe. we were 2nd runner up. surprisingly. i'm amazed erika got the best actress award. nicole or anyone could get it. i mean, she only got it cuz she was staring at shimmie wen she 'died'. like UGH much? oh and i'd like to thank our seniors! you guys are just awesome! thanks for being there! (= altho we sucked. i sucked.

i hate my day. sucked.. tons. i'm sorry clara. i lost that buckle. ): i'll look for em and tryta buy em wen i go hunting for them like tomorrow or sunday. oh shit. i can't! i have a biking trip in malaysia! dammit! URGH. fine, during weekdays, i'll go.

damn my freaking internet is so annoying. disconnecting like every 5 minutes. so i'm rushing to post this. freaking rushing. so. erms.. this week? i hate my results. i'm REALLY gonna study an 1 hour a day. argh. for me, it's a LOT. i can barely keep still for 5 min. oh wait. i can't. lols. so. 1 hour is so gonna be a feat. haiix.. no choice. ah wells. whatever.

one of the days next week is like, teachers day. like duh. i'm gonna see my primary sku teachers and bug em! wahahs! for my teachers in secondary sku, esp LSC, LWK, NM, i wanna throw maggot infested rotten apples with parasites at cha. nah. shove em down ur throat! ooh ooh! i'll poison them too! woohoo! CRAZEEEEEY!! but seriously. i frigging wanna do that. so much. too much.

i'm out. yo..

8/22/2006

that phase is over. the "i don't feel like blogging" phase. well, yeah. it was a.. BORING day. i was snoozing in class all the time. i really don't know what's going on in class. ugh, sucks. i gotta study soon. (like that will happen..) so. we should forget this all. have a sudden bout of amnesia.

had a music viva thingy today. quite alright. entertaining at first, a leeetle boring later. aww who am i kidding? boring! well du-uh. i'm easily bored. and well. halfway through the performance, this ass up freak sent me something that said i'm this shity guy's girlfren. i was practically steaming!! insult, much? too bad. i hate him more...

class was crappy. dont really wanna blog about it... argh. i hope hin wen will be alright. she's gone to hospital like twice already!! in this week! poor girl. hope she's alright..

our drama performance. this friday. we'll be performing infront of the MOEs and whoever so called VIPs.. our seniors and the like. ugh. we've barely practised. only fooling around. how cna i not feel anxious? i havent memorised my lines! i know there's something called improvisation. but. well. alright. i'll just do that. so there. argh. nervous.

haha i'm having this really ongoing convo with shao qi. it's fun, really. it's dumb, but fun. i'm too lazy to blog further, so. well. xxxx!!

8/21/2006

hah. for like the first time. i COMPLETELY don't feel like blogging. (other then this crap. don't get all what about this crap with me, yo.) like i said, so much to say. so little mood. lols i haven't said that before. i know. it's nonsense.

8/18/2006

alright. bitchy post alert. i've had it with all the shity crap going around, a'right? so, here goes.

i hate you-
nah. dislike you. but i'm gonna complain bout cha. hope you mind!! told cha i'm pissed.

shalin- dudette. stop being hypocritical, yo. you claim to dislike LSC but. wtf you're her freaking pet! i know very freaking well you like the way she's good to you. it's like, wtf. and. many people say you only got the lead role of inspector chan cuz you suck up to mr b. koh. stop pretending that you say you can't act. you say that to fish for compliments cuz nobody's gonna say "oh yeah you can't actually act, y'know?" in your face. but hell yeah they mean it. most of us thought you were a letdown. you can't handle it? quit. or surrender that role. oh yeah. one more thing. don't expect others to help you when you ain't willing to help others. what i mean is, be a good fren ya self before expecting others to be a good fren to you too. *ahem* that point wasn't from me, trust me some people hate you so much they're willing to make a hate blog about you too. cool this has been quite a long paragraph! wow.. i guess i should stop about you. let's move on, shan't we?

hah this one i can't name. but.. ********, that's her name. please. he ain't gonna except you overnight. stop expecting so much about him. oh and.. erm we kinda have to practise crap ya'know. and we want our privacy. so.. you should do ya own thang. i mean this in the nicest possible way. i love ya to bits but i draw the line when you start wasting people's time. (duh. more then one.) you made us sit there for close to an hour just waiting for ya to let her go. not that i don't sympathise with ya. you know i do. i love you to bits, get that clear. just stop interferring in our crap, dudette. it's irritating.) and coz, i know you're reading this. no offense.. yup i know you come to blog, lizabeth.

stacia-xue ying doesnt belong to you. she has the right to mix with who ever she wants. even if its victoria lim pei ru. get that straight. and stop ganging up with me to get her. i want my sweet revenge myself. i have my ways, and i'll get you if you mess my plan.

asslose-get a life. stop taking videos of me. you sick perverted lump of shit.. with all the fats and oil. stop talking about me. don't ask for my number anymore. LEAVE ME ALONE. FREAK SHOW.

yu teng-bitch.( the bad type.) selfish. self-centred. hypocritical. there's much more but i'll stop there.

ugh. i'm pissed. well,i'm tired of complaining about people for now. how short the complaining session has been.. well. many things to blog. no mood. lols. just came to post that bitchy shit.

oh. and uh. if you smsed me on friday the 18th before 7pm. sorry. i didnt bring my phone. didnt reply. i know. i forgot. left it on my bed. right now, i'm trying to think of something to blog. but..

yay. i thought of something. it was BABE day yesterday. boys are banned entierly, stupid. i lost the bet. darius talked to me and i FORGOT ABOUT THE BET. well, cuz of my sis. if i tell him, anyone thinks he'll feel guilty? *smiles* i bet he wont. any takers? i'll bet ya $100. i know i'll win this one.. ooh a funny thing happened to me and wen yesterday too. we were like gonna board 56. we weren't standign in the queue. so we kinda tried to enter the bus thru the bus 59 queue. we were like too concerned about talkin to each other we didnt realise we were standing in the wrong queue!! wth! only when i realised that 56 just left and we were just standing there, i was like.. UNCLE! stop for like, 2 seconds, wont cha? so silly! lols.. ended up walking half way of my journey home. with company of course. (= haha. it was fun.. toodles.

8/16/2006

kim <3 hin wen, cherilyn, mira, clara. tons.

poor cher. give him a week. he'll tell you by then. promise. and girl, don't be so sad. CHEER up. and dont do anything stupid.

i still havent apologised to him. crap. )= i saw him today. talking to some sec 2s. i wanted to go to him and say my speech. (which i havent prepared.) but, i should make up some crappy sappy story or something. better then hiding from him. for like 2 weeks, since wednesday. for once, i remembered my argument with him. wow?

i'm so gonna make a hate blog with the whole class. as long as they hate LSC, that is. y'know what she freakin did? that ass made us unbuckle our skirt, unzip our skirt, TUCK IN OUR SHIRT, UNFOLD SKIRT, MAKE US WEAR SO EFF-ING HIGH!! bloody shit!! AND SHE THREW AWAY MY LAST PIECE OF ELASTIC! wth!! it was so embarassing! first floor, everyone can see! and UGH. too pissed!

8/15/2006

this is my fourth post today, and i'm lmho. (laughing my head off, idiot.)

if i go to UK, i'll be away from MY SISTER, MY MOMMA, MY DADDY, (AND HIS FREAKING ASSES OF A FAMILY.) and my past. hello? if i had the chance in the world would i not go? ugh i'mma kid, but your point is? c'mmon. i'm 13 for pete's sake. and i'll be in a boarding school. with teachers! and, in about 5 years, i'll be shaking my thang already. actually, i'm already doin that. so. she should just lemme go! and, of course, pay for it. (= lols?

there are so many things to blog. but not enough time. missing a day of school makes it seem like i have so much time. i love that!! time. i have it all. in my hands. sorry. had it all. it's lost tomorrow.

i dont think i'll blog anymore today. 4 times is more than enough.

8/14/2006

this is gonna be my 3rd post today. but it's a meaningful one. valerie told me a few stories that made me feel grateful for what i've got. she made me realise how much stuff i have. the world is unfair. some people have it all. some people have none. i should be glad i have parents instead of hating them cuz they always say no. i should be glad i have a place to stay. i should be glad i have enough food to eat. i should be glad for so many things.. and i know i should not be THAT disappointed i can't go to sibford. i love the idea and all. but.. i must be contented with what i have! although it's freaking hard especially for this issue.. i have to learn to take it in my stride and accept things the way they are.

some kids are abandoned by their parents. some kids have to work and support their family. some have a great family but succumb to lust and the nature of normal human beings and take drugs and the like. some kids don't even get to go to sku. i'm glad i'm not like that. i should just.. grab onto my chance when it comes along. however long that may take. i'll wait.

it ain't wrong to want something. it's just that you gotta make sure it doesnt get out of control. like the way i quarreled with my mom last night? hooh! it was crazy. i was just so dang pissed i couldnt go. i totally didnt respect her at all. i feel bad.. i remember how i wished everyone was born with a GOLD spoon in their mouths. so everyone's equal. and their chances to do something's the same. unlikethe fact that: hin wen can go to sibford and i cant. the way she has a manager and i don't. the way she has 2 credit cards and i have none. the way.. uhh ohkay i better stop if not the self pity issue may return. what about the people in africa? they have even less than what i do.. but we dont' see THEM crying. even if they do, they have every reason to. why not?

so, kim. don't pity yourself. you don't deserve it! it's sad ya can't go to sibford. least you can stay in kcp. (erm i hate that part but i'm gonna continue) i mean, if you major in theatre in sibford, it'll be 6hours a day! and it's a boarding school and. shut up. breathe. slowly.

alright i'm NOT pitying myself anymore. (like real. but at least i'm trying.) ugh fine. this post has been boring. don't blame me.

when there was me and you. i love that song. so much.. feelings and emotions brought out. i can so .. communicate with that song.. hah. it's funny. today, i was feeling rather moody. then i brightened up cuz i didnt go to school. and now. i'm sad. how songs affect me so..

***********

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here
but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe thatI could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

***********

you WERE my fairytale. i thought there was so much more than there seemed to be. you changed my life. you made me smile. you made me look forward to coming to school. then you yourself changed. and changed my life. thinking of what used to be.. cuz that's all i'm left with.

oh crap. i should so stop. i'm identifying with this song so much that i'm crying.. -_-" hah. wat the heck.

oh that sure worked out really well. sense the sarcastism. the talk just went so horribly wrong in all the right places. obviously i can't go. i gotta go to aus. but. i so don't want to!! haiix. *sobs* and *sobs* my mom and i sure had a huge tiff last night. as in huge. it's just not fair. some people have it all. while some people don't. what am i blogging about? money. it really makes the world go round..but. it ain't my god. nah uh. i've already calculated how much it would cost for me to be in the uk. and. it's about 10k. plus a few hundred. and i mean for like.. 2 months. of course my mom wouldn't pay. its like 5k a month? and. my dad? dont get me started. he clenchs his wallet so tighly i can see his veins! haha jking. like anyone in my family would let me go.. dream trashers. all of them. i hate my family..

i think the only good thing about my tiff last night, that i get to skip school today. i told my mom i wasn't feeling well. in normal circumstances, i'd have to go to school. but. i have this habit of falling sick after like getting really really unhappy and everything. she knows that. but it's fake. well, it was fake. now i'm REALLY sick!! -_-" ironically, yea it's true. i wasn't sick when i woke up at like 6 plus. now, at 9 plus, i feel sick. headache. giddiness. sore throat. stiff back. runny nose. wth. it's coming true. damn. lols. cant believe it. oh great. now my tummy hurts too. UGH!!

so, obviously i'm here right now. wondering what to eat. cuz i'm freaking starving and i feel so weak i don't want to buy anything. my back is killing me! and the 'stiffness' is spreading to my neck!! but. weeeeee! i dont have runny nose anymore. lols? i feel stiff. i can bearly even type. much less get myself something to eat... i'm freaking hungry but i cant eat. wow fantastic. haiix i hate this sudden weakness in my body. so fragile. weak. like a rose petal. haha ohkay. what does me being sick have to do with a rose petal? haha i'm blogging crap. tata

i love the drama esplanade girls like tons!! and no, i'm not a lesbian. get that thought outts ya head and dont get all sick with me. like i was saying, amirah, clara, hin wen totally rock!! we are such good friends that... we kinda want to go to boarding sku together. in abingdon. since hin wen's going, we all want to too. especially me. i'd rather go to a foreign country with my good friend than my family. like duh. i dont like them that much. especially the additional ones or my sister. most of you guys wont know wth i'm talking in the first part, but. i'm sure some do. so no questions.

i'm so not joking. seriously.. we all want to go there together!! does this remind you of "we're all in this together" like omg. i love that song. neways.. it's kinda cool, y'know. to go to boarding school with your best buds. great, eh? i'm so looking forward to it. only problem? my mom. like. ugh. wat the hell. like she'll go "oh sure. go to abbington with wen. no problem. i'll post you your allowance and all that." like she would. haiix.

so. how should i say it to her.. oh i know.
heyya mom. erm i'm sure you want me to be independant right? (she's supposed to say yes.)
and. you want me to do well in my studies right? (she'll definetely say yes for this one.)
and. you want me to be happy right? (after a long silence, she'll say yes then ask what i want.)
well.. i know we've got plans to go to aus, but. there is erm, this boarding school in UK, abingdon called sibford. and. i was thinking.. can i go there to study? with my good friend? her dad's gonna be there. my studies will 100% be better. i promise! and blah blah blah blah.

is that, ohkay? argh. this is such an UGH-y phase of my life. i wanna go. and i want it bad. ):

8/12/2006

We're all in this together
Once we know
That we are
We're all stars
And we see that
We're all in this together
And it shows
When we stand
Hand in hand
Make our dreams come true

woohoo. high school musical fanatic!! (: OBSSESSED!! i'm dancing like there's no tomorrow.. i slept at 4.30am cuz i was still dancing. and. well, (lol) watching the video. alright alright. i fell asleep half way. so i only danced for .. 2 hours. wow. nice workout. ^_^ hah i keep replaying the songs. it's crazy!! but. it's so so so so so so so so so so so so sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good!! maybe i'll change my skin to a hsm one soon. but. not the same as hin wen's. obviously. no questions needed. duh?

today's service was.. ohkay. but i was so hungry i kinda couldnt concentrate. as usual, my sis was sleeping. ugh. in church? -_-" and. planet shakers performed JUMP in today's service. too bad val missed it. )= haha the advantages of going to a big church. with like 10 thousand people in it. next week is FCBC's 20 anniversary. woohoo! woots i love my church!!

we were supposed to go shopping, but got lost. called her many times, no answer. the other one didnt bring her phone. -_-" so coincidental, no? so.. i'm at home now. blogging. sigh.. i was hoping to get a new pair of kulots, kakis, skirts.. a few tees and a pair of slippers. now its too late. and. i can't miss my training anymore unless i wanna lose my trophy in the aquathlon. which i dont, so i guess i gotta wait. darn no sun. can't get a tan. )= it would be good to get a tan while training y'know? ahh well. too bad. think i should leave soon. so, tata!

we're all in this together!! (: loves like, tons!! omg i should so stop talking and singing any song from HSM!! ugh, obssession!! like the way i have with gelato. well, i should shut up about such stuff. i'll bet it's getting on everyone's nerves. but still? HSM is the best!! WOOHOOOO!!! man i've been replaying all the videos of all the songs from HSM till my sister is like so pissed. hehe. i think she likes HSM too. ^_^ she kept asking me the title of the songs so she can like, y'know. download it. even for a person like my sister, who likes way different music from me, she likes HSM too!! woots!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=dmZlXpXTK4k we're all in this together!

lols i really love HSM!! oh and zac efron? hotness!!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=dmZlXpXTK4k bop to the top!!

and another.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=SLMgC8BlbXU what i've been waiting for!! (u gotta turn up ur speakers for this one.)

i wonder how many times i've replayed theses videos already.. hmms.. well. countless. i've been at it for the whole day. (= i can so do the dance already. lols. <3 href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rcuPxN2z_uE&NR">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rcuPxN2z_uE&NR i can't take my eyes off you. not in the movie.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=wWcY9LbWw_A when there was me and you. gabriella's solo. nice. <3 href="http://youtube.com/watch?v=T0RjnYmc7k8">http://youtube.com/watch?v=T0RjnYmc7k8 start of something new!

well i should stop blogging about HSM although i adore it to BITS. and zac efron looks so hot.. ohkay. sorry. i should stop. toodles!! and HSM still rocks! (how many times have i said that..?)

omg. my sister IS THE WORST cluedo player in the world!! even my dad is better then her! wahahs. jking la. she's just ughy. whatever. out.

8/11/2006

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i only have one thing to say. DRAMA RAWKS!! my day, excluding drama, has been.. so-so. pe was fun tho. (= gymnastics test and bball. FUN!! floorball next week. and. i'm gonna retake my gymnastics test. and get a freakin high A. i'm gonna do this really high kick and hold my leg in the air. maybe a rowing boat and.. a somersault and a flip. yup. i can do it. OR.. maybe a.. erm. wats it called.. erm. the one that you form a upside down U wen ya just turn over. ohkay. weird.. how should i discribe it? ohkay. ignore it.

well, back to drama. we have this young dramatist award. and your supposed to use 5 stimulis-poisoned wine. necktie. mirror. lipstick mark. letter opener. we've got it all planned out and we are so gonna rock. and. i LOVE my group!! amirah,clara,hin wen,me, douglas. woohoo!! we can so gel. like ya know. connect. and we have chemistry. the power of being friends. :D woots!! love em tons. and we had such a fun day. after school, we like, hung. and conceptualised. and practised. it was all real fun! nice day.

we met mr jackson teo while rehearsing. talked and talked. i almost got to mark 1 truth's lit paper. but. i didnt. )= and if i were able to, i'd have given some ass a minus mark!! hah. jking. just a really bad grade. he was talking to us with really chim stuff. we were all like.. erm. wat? it got so chim till clara and i had to go to the toilet. mira and hin wen were prolly too polite. but. hey. i needed the toilet too. (= and we're glad we got to talk to mr jackson teo. it was his last day at kcpss. glad we made it a memorable one. we're just too crazy and laid back and all. haha self praise. we saw a pic of him and his fiancee. chio bu!! and mr jackson teo has this really nice american accent. way cool.

we went to mac and chilled. chilled. chilled. till like 6 plus. met nicole there too. i followed wen back to her house. sat at the bus stop for like 1 hour. cuz i was supposed to go for swimming, but i missed it. (; hah. wat else is new? gosh i'm loving this. but. i know i should stop. think i'm gonna make two new blogs. and delete this one. dont ask why. since i love girly and i love being gothic and all, incorporate the two and i'll get pink eyeliner. rocks! and. i have this sudden obssession wit skirts. -_-" hah. <3 em. kim hearts pink, eyeliner, skirts. loves. understand?

8/10/2006

crap i got tuition today. how i hate it. it's like.. UGH. DETEST. ABHOR. HATES. ARGHHHH!! it's the worst thing!! well, other then LSC that is. but. well. bloody shit.

i'm sorry i'm not as crazy as i usual, hin wen. i've got tons of stuff on my mind right now. and i have this strange obsurd obssession wiht eyeliner now. i just bought 3! liquid, pencil and a different coloured one. ohkay. well, not me. i got a fren to buy. so i'm not sure what the mystery coloured one is. but. it's not black or brown. i can assure you. the idea of bleeding eyeliner seems to appeal to me like TONS.


well, there's a problem so i cant upload any pictures. but. you people should join the NEW BALANCE AQUATHLON. quite easy. like swim 750 m and run 5km. (= woohoo. and. i'm basking in the glory cuz someone, just a someone, cant even run a lap of the school field without panting like shit. *ahem* you know who. *points*

i still cant put a tagboard just yet. or a "u're listening to" thing yet. later. after i come back from my crappy unhelpful freaking ass-ed up tuition class. sigh. if i can. so. bear with me. and. stop smsing me to ask why there is no tagboard. or on msn.

and. i cant reply anyone's smses unless it's an emergency till the 13th of aug. which is 2 days from now. so bear with me. hah. sorta.

8/09/2006

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this is the new skin. love it and hate it. =) it's troublesome. that's all. and i haf to write the date. sigh, i have to check all the time. well, duh. i don't even know what day it is today. sheesh. hmm but i think it has to be.. thursday. right? cuz there's only 2 hols.. and.. ugh. nvm. it's thursday! don't care. lols

it's gonna be, well, a lil girly post today. see the colours? pink? purple? love em both!! ^_^

about the previous post.. seriously, it's better to act dumb and get told what to do and blah blah blah then to face it all. oh yeah. personal reminder to myself- i owe someone an apology. big time. haiix. poor dude. but. wat the heck. i'll do it tomorrow. or maybe next week. yeah. then i can have my speech. a good one at that. darn. guess i have to start thinking about what to say soon. or should i send a sms? nah. it's more personal.. so..face to face approach i guess. man i really hurt em. i'm sorry.. well, that's the end of my personal reminder. oh gimme a few seconds. my sister has been singing this REALLY nice song. shayne ward's no promises. i love it tons!! from the first time i heard it! too bad they don't have it on http://iwebmusic.com <<>

sigh. no more tagboard or the ur hearing part. it'll, ya noe.. erm.. how should i put it.. err..obstruct the other stuff. ohkay. nvm. for the people who have been to my blog during its construction, ya'll will know what i'm refering to. it's just plain irritating. hah. i've just noticied, that i have the word irritating, annoying or pissing in like, all my posts. awesome, babe!! so, say hola!

damn i have an urge to go the beach. any takers? but. valerie's out. ash has really painful fingers. it wouldn't be nice to ask her. so.. who should i ask? yeah. i know. i'm pretty much talking to myself here. i kinda know that.


to feel the wind in your hair with the ones you love.
at the beach, with the sun on your shoulders.
you'll laugh and smile.
you may get burnt.
but at least you had fun.

wow. this has been colourful. does it hurts your eyes to read it? (: woohoo. that's my.. short discription of.. erm.. being at the beach. i love the you may get burnt part. lols. sadistic. wahah. i'm bored.. BEACH BEACH BEACH!! i wanna go to the beach!! am i doing well in my whining and acting like a spoilt brat? i hope i am. cos that's what i'm planning to do.

may be i'll blog later. i'm so hungry. i'm dying. and i still need to fix my silly blog problems. ma fan!! peace.

when in doubt, always act dumb. even tho it pisses people off.

AND DUDE. STOP ASKING ME HOW. I FREAKING DONT KNOW. IT'S ANNOYING!!

yeah. i blogged just to say this. hah. lame. i know. i agree too. (=

this skin is annoying. cheating people's money. sorta like my pet phrase. it's irritating. i know. can't be helped.

happy birthday singapore. it's your.. erm.. 43? 41? 42? ugh. i don't know. lols? here are some.. stuff. uh huh. i'm bored.

i'm gonna buy extra tickets for the PLANETSHAKERS concert, either for friday or saturday. i'm sure i heard my pastor say one of the days that tickets are sold out. not sure which. but. i'm gonna get like 3 extra. incase anyone wants. so, sms me asap!! woohoo! planetshakers!

my nov and december hols are so gonna be fun. going to melbourne. then wellington. i'll be living with my relatives but i'm sure to haf a heap of fun!! diving, hunting, (not me. my uncle.) and the works. oh man. FUN! and i may be travelling alone! or with my sis. but i'm sure a lil company would be nice. even if it's with my sis. but. she'll be staying longer then me in wellington. so.. i'll be away from my sis for at least 1 month! i'm sure i'll miss having someone to quarrel with. i'm gonna bet the house will be so quiet with me being the only person in it. that's why i have to go out. so i'd better start saving to go shopping too. and. going to the beach! ash, wan yee, val, GO BEACH with me ohkays? must. must. must!!

hah. over-reaction? nahh. it's just me.



think of the moon
as the midnight sun.

Because it illuminates the night the way lights never could.
Because it recalls memories of walks in the park.
Because it's all you need to come out and play.
Because company is better shared in the moonlight.
Because there's no better place to be then in your arms.
Because you're in my heart, 24 hours and more.
Because you're there, no matter where i am.

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lol. i changed it from a macdonalds advertisement. LOLs?

8/08/2006

they say she's a bitch. yeah. i know. my sister. well, double duh? i dont know why we hate each other so much. nahh. actually i know. but. it's kinda sad. sisters? hating each other so much? that's why we shouldn't be sisters. oh man. if she were anyone but my sister or anyone releated to me, things would've been so much different. she takes and breaks it all. i'm don't like the fact that she hates me and i hate her. kinda like a tit for tat thing. it saddens the people around us. do i care? am i supposed to? i'm feeling cold right now. it's just something to grow through. you live, and die. why live in the first place? all you're doing is.. work, study, whatever. bullshit y'know? all of a sudden i feel this.. connection, if you should call it, between me and.. my sister. connection as in we hate each other more. hah. i stole the computer from her. like it's my fault that fugly bitch agreed to let me use it then say "huh? did i say i was gonna let you use? hmmm? proof?" wtf i felt like slapping her. that is 100& bitchy. dont even get me started on her more bitchy 'stunts' alright? i'm cursed to have a sister like mine already ohkays? so, lay off.

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i win in all our battles. i know she ain't that weak. she's just letting me win. ass. too bad. she thinks i can't handle her? even a 1 year old could kill her. with all the salivating and the pooping, i think it would kill me too. so, nvm. imagine i didn't type that. well, i should continue winning since she wants me too. (: but. why would she fight just a little and let me win? O.o weirdo. guess the only thing that we haf in common are that.. we're weird. and happy to proclaim it. damn right yeah.

damn. i'm getting pissed with everyone around me now cuz of her. UGH. sorry people. but now, i think even if i were in my crazy self, i'd get angry wit this idiot who keeps asking me to guess when i already told em that I DONT WANT TO. argh man. this dude. is annoying.
"carry on guessing then" that's all that idiot says!! it's pissing. i don't reply but. OMG. that freak just said "happy guessing" for the 78th time!! yes i counted!! annoying! who says that anyway? unless you're an idiot, you will.

national dae celebrations? BLAH. truth be told, it was plain boring. we had to stand in the parade square with our bags and everything.. and forced to dance. (not that everyone, including me, did.) then we kinda had to sit down on our asses for like 2 hours. butt ache much? hell yeah. hah hin wen had to dance! and her hothot cutecute had to walk past her right at that moment! embarassment? totally. could tell she was blushing to the tip of her toes!!

renice was supposedly supposed to come with us to watch a movie. but left with someone else cuz hin wen told her tt she was gonna ditch her if she went to look for her cute cute. well. that was kinda like exactly what wen said. awww, right? yup yup. i'd have went to look for my cute cute too. ain't it normal?? oh yeah. sorry. i'm calling every guy cutecute or cutecute hothot. but. they must be cute or hot in our eyes, DUH. i know what you guys are thinking. losers? desperados? NAH UH. don't give a damn bout' what you people think. believe what you'll believe. and continue being an asssssss. with the many s's in it. don't get it, dumd head? too bad.

ya know the movie click? it's nice. really. least i think so. zane, jason and another dude joined us for the movie. it kinda made me and wen cry. awwww. i won't spoil anything for you guys just incase you may wanna watch it. so..erm. go watch it. you'll be impressed.

it really surprises me how much we all miss the seniors. we may have grown a lil apart. but. we love em all. hah. you guys know what i mean. esp the sec fiveies!! i mean, the sec 5s. ya'll are great!! drama ain't that fun without you guys!! all fo us from the esplanade group solemnly PROMISE to 'uphold' KCP drama club's name and do it proud!! we're gonna do our best and make it.. the best. PROMISE!! not sure about the (umm) others. i know many of us wish they weren't in drama. like those not in the esplanade group. but. we should, ya know, give others a break. and chill. like relax. completely.

i'm looking forward to this holiday. one word. shopping. hell yea that'll be fun!! and of course, tollerating my ****ing sister's fugly self. i'm sorry. i don't use the f word unless i'm pissed. a lot. somehow my sis has (yet again) become even more irritating. like, i don't even want to talk to ehr and she gets this freaking strange idea that i want to. zane, she was ohkay when she was p5. now? bitch. don't look at me like that. you don't know how she is till you see her true colours. not that she has anyways. transparent. that's what she is. oh man. she's starting to sing again. damn her. no good voice and she still continues to sing. gawd, spare a thought for others kays?

8/07/2006

this is totally freaking me out. seriously.. i can't and don't want to say ANYTHING about it. at all. so.. don't ask. hmm is that all i wanna blog? noooo...

i'm telling ya, ppl.. never run 5 km without training for it. ever. especially if u haf a partially dislocated hip bone. it hurts!! ohkay. u people should be wondering.. why did cha run 5km in the first place?? well, there's this aquathlon coming up.. and i'm training for it. DUH. must win! heh.. not sure if i'm gonna run anymore. well, at least for the next like.. 3 or 4 days.

oh yeah. don't skip class if ur form teacher is mrs loh. ever. you'll get into freaking a lot of trouble. darn that reminds me. i haf an over due library book!! and i dont noe where it is! argh... i'm seriously PRO.

well, least i got a new skirt. and a new apron. skirt? uniform ah. if it were not for a uniform, it would be.. genius. wat? yea!! it's true. can't remember the last time i went shopping. hmm tmw's national day. guess what i'm wearing. jeans. red top. again. damn i'm in love with my jeans now! it's like.. obssessed? i wish i had my levi's one.. but.. the one i haf now ain't half bad. still love em just as much. and why am i blogging about jeans?! ohkay.. whatever. ugh. i'm weird. but i noe someone who FREAKS me out more then me and hin wen put together!! and i'm telling ya, we are weirdos. so what does it tell you about that dude?

and.. **// u alvin cheong. i'll make ur life a living hell. well, not really. i'm too much of an angel to do that. not.

8/05/2006

hi. i'm like so bored so i'm getting lame. and my computer is LAGGING. ugh annoying!! and it seems like 50 people are talking to me!! UGH. oh mann i wonder how i'm able to blog this. but i can say that this is taking me a very long time to.. blog. argh. oh ohkay good. i'm done with my game of bejeweled with clara. more free.. finally.

i seem to be growing further and further away from god. i dont really wanna go to church now. i feel so bad.. haiix. i don't noe where all my church frens are. long time since i contacted them. i keep missing my cgs. ugh. i feel so bad. oh man. i'm determined to go for church tmw. but.. something seems to be holding me back. actually it ain't really my fault. i HAVE to see my dad every sat. how m i supposed to go for cg? excuses! UGH. stop it,kim!! it's really really BAD!!

i'm just freaked. cuz a.. dude. well, he.. argh. nvm. it's just freakaye. totally freaking me!! sniffs. this guy is nice and all.. but. but. but. but. but!! haiix. nvm. this has been rather shity. i noe. dont blame me. now i'm bored. sorrie again.

8/04/2006

hmmm it's been like a few days since i blogged. finally some time and peace to blog. some of my days haf been rather crappy, some haf been an utter joy. yesterday? it sucked. a lot. too much for words.

old hag tot ash and i were faking sick to escape from a chi test. well, yeah, that was kinda like our purpose.. but hello???!!! i missed my fav class to be sick!! PE!! wtf!! and it's been like 3 weeks since i last had a PE lesson. gymnastics ain't tt bad. it's actually quite easy. but that is so not the point.. so erm.. well old hag (LSC) may blow my chances of beign a councillor. i did it in a moment of folly alrights? i regret it! and anyways, we kinda haf to retake the test soon. heh.. wasted. got scolded and everything and we still haf to take the test. wat the.. UGH.

i've been coming home really late the past couple of days. (till my mom has to sms me like 5 times..) went to sha's house. cute dog. nice house. i dig the swing. a lot. i won't say anything with the word d r o p anywhere in the same sentence now cos of something i did... so..erm yea. sorry, sha. went to ash's house next. big house. nice room.

i'm not quite sure wat to blog abt now..oh yeah, hin wen, cher n i went out as usual. blah blah blah. went tothe student centre after the usual trip to j8. with jason too. we were like bugging him wen he was supposed to be doing his art. lols. fun! saw ms wong and sam playing the game soccer. not the sport soccer. the one in the student centre should give u a clue wat it is. wen jason n i played with sam, we made him deprove!! LOLs!! he was like.. wat the ****. ohkay ohkay, he's not so vulgar.. my bad. k? the more we played with him made him deprove even more. wahahs! it's so fun!!

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bye-